Not Sure Where to Go From Here.

There are so many thoughts flying through my head these days, so I'm going to try to capture a few while I can.

• I recently started to run again. I have found that I really enjoy it, and I want to get to the point where I can go for long runs without too much of a struggle. The lovely Morgan inspired me by her running program in which she has made huge progress. I'm so impressed! I have reached a huge obstacle already, however, and that is that I have immensely flat feet which causes me to over-pronate. This has given me a great deal of pain in my legs almost to the point of it being unbearable. After looking into it, I have found that my gait and my arches are completely messed up - it's almost as if I don't know how to walk, which just seems like such an odd thing. Something so simple, yet it's really a challenge right now. I went to Foot Solutions and picked up a nice (really expensive) pair of supportive shoes for over-pronaters, the Brooks Ariel. So far it's helped, but I've only been walking, no running again yet...so we shall see.
• I have been doing Yoga everyday, and I have really come to love love love it. It helps not only my body's strength and flexibility, but really give me that time I need to center myself and my thoughts. It's become my "me" time, and I've also really enjoyed doing it with Morgan and Kelsey on some occasions. I really hope to continue to do yoga and truly incorporate it into my daily life.
• I realized the other night that I am scared. I don't usually feel like I'm the person to be scared, but it just hit me. I'm scared of the future and what it holds. I know I shouldn't be - I should embrace it, love the change! I usually do...so what's different now? Maybe it's because this change is bigger, more permanent. I've gone away, studied abroad, been around the world, BUT I always come back again. I always know what's waiting when I come back. As I look at jobs, and think of the possibility of moving to a new city on my own, I know I won't just be coming back in a few months or a year. It seems more permanent. I also think of the fact that I'm a young woman, a prime target. I don't have much self defense training, so what if something happens, and I can't defend myself? I guess there are always what ifs. I need to learn to face them boldly.
• Another thing that scares me...Kelsey is now in Israel! It's also just a strange feeling. She has gone on the same trip that I went on four years ago this summer. It really was a life changing trip. I fell in love with Israel, and really embraced my religion and my culture. Israel is one of the most beautiful places I have ever been, but probably one of the most dangerous as well. I feel like if something happened to Kelsey, I would feel responsible, because I do think it was at least partially my experience and my love of Israel and Judaism that really allowed her religious and cultural growth to occur as well. I hope she has at least half the amount of fun I had, and makes some amazing lifelong friendships like I was able to do. I can't believe it's been so long since my first time in Israel. It seems surreal. I also can't believe that right now I have no firm plans to head back that way.
• I realized that there are a few things that I want to make sure I do in my life on a daily basis: Yoga, Ceramics, Running, Gardening.
• I have been playing Boggle and Scrabble a lot recently also. I've definitely gotten better as time has passed, but I'm beginning to think I need a break - I'm dreaming about words now! Such a bizarre thing.

Alright, I think that's about it - I'm sure there is more, but I'll be back.

Also, I'm really excited for the new Leonardo DiCaprio movie, Inception. I'm not much of a celebrity person, but Leo just does it for me.