The End, and The Start of New Beginnings.

After four years of undergrad, I am now a Wittenberg graduate. I feel pretty indifferent to this big change and big step in my life, but I think that is mostly because I have no idea what is coming next. The start of the summer was wonderful. Abby was here for my graduation, then we went on a road trip from Cincinnati to Miami Beach and back up to Providence! It was certainly A LOT of driving, but it was definitely a fun and memorable trip. And we were able to stand one another the entire time =P After I flew home from Providence, I left the next day on a road trip down to Plano, TX to visit my brother and my aunt. We spent most of the time down there shopping for my brother's new apartment, so it wasn't the most exciting thing. And now, here I am - wondering what comes next. I've been applying for job after job, but no one seems to be biting. I've heard from a few people, but nothing super promising. I also just don't really know what I want to spend 40+ hours a week doing. Does anyone really know that?

I do know that:

• I miss throwing on the wheel. I need to find a class or a studio that doesn't have ridiculous prices so I can start up again.
• I love love love my garden. It is very calming to work in the earth. It helps me center myself and really get in touch with where I come from, where my food comes from, where I'll eventually end up. I love seeing a beautiful plant grow from a single tiny seed, willing to provide me with sustenance, with life, with beauty. I am growing spaghetti squash again, cucumbers, red peppers, several varieties of tomatoes, echinacea, green beans, eggplant, salvia, dill, thyme, lavender, rosemary, catnip, basil, cilantro, oregano, pineapple, and figs. I don't think I missed anything in there... EXCEPT for my prized plant at the moment - my elephant ear plant. It is beautiful and growing faster than I could imagine.
• I miss Abraham Berin. It feels like so long since I returned from Providence, and it's especially hard not knowing when I'll see him again. I guess that just wraps into the whole "I have no idea what my life is doing right now" thing.
• I have too much stuff. I feel so cluttered and overwhelmed by the material in my life, yet I don't know how to let go of it. Everything seems to have a use at some point, and I'd hate to waste. Also, the boxes and boxes of ceramics around my room don't seem to help - maybe I should get on selling them.

Anyway, that's about it. I need to keep reminding myself that while I have this time with NOTHING planned, I need to use it for all the things I've always wanted to do, but knew I didn't have the time.

So here's to taking advantage of free time, to loving every moment, and to finding the path that I will soon follow.

Lots of love.